| Reflection |
[Oct. 4th, 2009|05:37 pm] |
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So I've decided to reread all of my journal entries since the beginning. Daunting task I know. BUT I feel like I used to be rather clever (even if a terrible speller) and I'd like to recapture some of the magic (Albeit with hopefully better capitalization and grammar). It seems I used to use this journal purely to exercise my right to complain without annoying anybody except by choice. So in livejournal fashion...
TODAY WAS AWFUL. I'm sure he doesn't think he did any such thing but I firmly believe that the Children's pastor lied to me, twice! Or at the very least was not entirely honest. I realize that we can probably just caulk up both instances to him "being nice" but I'm offended.
I had an interview with him for a position which I wasn't completely qualified for (and I knew that), so I wasn't expecting wide spread acceptance. Anyway he told me he was going to check with his video editing guy and have the vidiot look at my resume and decide if I could learn how to do that part of the job satisfactorily with me experience. Then he said he'd call me back and meet with me one on one to talk about it. (Lie #1).
Frankly I wasn't surprised that this was a social pleasantry rather than a promise but after a week he did ask me to schedule a meeting with his secretary. (On a side note he might have the worst secretary every but I'm sure there's a good reason on her side) So after another 2 weeks or so we met. Not to talk about my working for him but to talk to him about my volunteering for him. (Imagine my surprise) I awkwardly asked how the hunt was going for his Production Manger (aka vidiot because that's what he really wanted) and he said there was someone that he had just talked to that he was considering. (Lie #2). He then asked me to come to Children's church and see how I could help out.
I go home and write one of my award winning emails about how and why he absolutely should hire me. I'm telling you, AWARD WINNING. Then three days later head my hopefully little butt over to Children's church where he introduces me TO THE GUY HE HIRED A WEEK AGO as someone who would be a great volunteer. Needless to say I felt...
Embarrassed, used, humiliated, used, childish, foolish, angry, upset, and several other much stronger emotions that mostly involved how I could get the Children's pastor fired. Not my most shinning moment.
Now here's the question: do I avoid the ministry or try to become so entrenched in it that they might eventually realize they should have hired me in the first place? |
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[Oct. 2nd, 2009|10:49 pm] |
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I used to have lots of friends on livejournal... it seems somehow that now I have none. |
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[Oct. 2nd, 2009|10:44 pm] |
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I've decided to try skinny. don't tell my husband.
according to my BMI I could loose 50 pounds and still be within "normal" for my height. I don't think I'll get that far because I think I'm more muscular then the BMI anticipates but still it's a rather large amount of "extra me". I think if I lost 30 I'd feel pretty stinking awesome. |
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[Oct. 2nd, 2009|10:44 pm] |
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I've decided to try skinny. don't tell my husband. |
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| What?!? |
[Sep. 30th, 2009|03:50 pm] |
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Did you hear 'they' just came out with a prescription to help you grow longer thicker eyelashes... No, you heard me, a PRESCRIPTION. I think I just figured out what's wrong with this country. Vanity as a contest is reaching Olympic proportions. |
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| Deferment |
[Sep. 30th, 2009|03:48 pm] |
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Just finished filling out all the deferment paperwork for mine and Jake's loans... I feel like I just filled out "I'm a failure" paperwork. |
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| Eternal Sunshine |
[Sep. 29th, 2009|08:04 pm] |
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perhaps this movie will make me feel better about my problems
I really thought things were going to be different when we left AZ... |
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[Feb. 27th, 2008|08:14 pm] |
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I don't want to quit my job. I like being liked, everyone calls me a rock star or a cowboy because i'm willing to go the extra mile to get the job done (such as stand on the mid rails of the stupid genie) this stuff wouldn't have been given a second thought at pepperdine... Oh the days of 12th night and the extended A-frame over the pool... kala does anyone have those pictures? |
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[Feb. 27th, 2008|08:08 pm] |
I'm writing this out of annoyance at what Baylor is and what it could be. When I arrived there was no inventory of anything so I've been slowly compiling one. We recently ordered 2 rosco imagepros which we will now have to return because as it would turn out, tucked into a corner on the top shelf of a weird closet... were two imagepros... *sigh*.
Also due to some sluthing it looks like we will finally be getting rid of the old strand units because as it turns out the wiring is likely coated in Asbestos... yes, you heard me, Asbestos. Probably not actually dangerous but enough to get us a decent inventory of source4's (we hope). |
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| 94 days to go |
[Feb. 19th, 2008|11:52 pm] |
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My last update was 51 weeks ago...
I miss Pepperdine. I like it at Baylor but it will never be Pepperdine. Someday I want to give money to the program at Pepperdine so that other kids who can't afford it can go like I did... but I'm afraid that when I am old enough to be able to afford it my Pepperdine will be gone. Stewart is Leaving, David is Leaving, George is Leaving, Andrew Left, Danny Left... what if Rick leaves or Cathy or Bill or Carol... will it still be the Pepperdine I went to? The Pepperdine I loved? What happens when there's no one left that I loved? |
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[Feb. 21st, 2007|12:35 am] |
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i'm tired, but tonight i did something very much out of the box for me. I climbed precariously on top of a ladder, my boyfriend wouldn't have believed it if he had seen it. (this doesn't change how i feel about heights.) The show must go on. After completing the death defying act the boys who were too safe to succeed called me a rock star and asked for my hand. |
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| sleep |
[Feb. 17th, 2007|02:45 am] |
every night sleep evades me. at last i surrender and curl up on my side with beau bear tightly in my arms and a pillow to my back... at the break of day I always awake. I awake on the same side but with beau bear behind me... so I roll over and clutch him to my breast again before seeking my dreams anew.
Tonight I saw a play about suicide
The lights were striking and the sound was haunting
the acting... was acceptable and at times haunting
I have homework due tomorrow... yes on saturday.
I was going to do it late tonight when I couldn't sleep.
but blackboard and wavenet are missing in cyberspace just out of reach
i wonder how many sites are down and sought after tonight.
the internet is a big place to get lost in. |
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| I love you, You're Perfect............. Goodbye? |
[Feb. 6th, 2007|12:36 pm] |
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Have you ever awoken from a bad dream and then had to go through the slow groggy relisation that it was true? I'm upset. I feel like I followed through as best as I could and at the last minute was told that it just wasn't good enough. I gave up a lot for this. I gave up my time, my pretty nails, my uncalloused fingers, and most of all I gave up Dance in Flight. I have worked dance in flight every year and every year worked to get to be the designer the following year but it just never worked out. This year it was going to align perfectly but this overlapped. I agreed to do this so I followed though. I'm not mad at Micah I just wish this wouldn't have come at such a high cost for me. My pride is a little hurt. AND I know this will probably be better. I am glad that the show will be the best it can be but this really truely sucks. |
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| So this is LiveJournal |
[Dec. 6th, 2006|09:41 pm] |
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Oh... I remember you... look... all my old friends... and there's a picture of my old car... did you miss me? |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 27th, 2006|12:14 am] |
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I miss y'all... I miss journaling... do you miss me? |
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| The End! |
[Apr. 9th, 2006|03:18 pm] |
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The theatre season is offically over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! All that is left is the Theatre banquet.... which is a lot of work but just as much fun |
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| the time has come |
[Apr. 9th, 2006|01:36 am] |
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well the time has come for me to update, I got an email from lj that said that i wasn't updating, go figure. So, Uh.... hi? |
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| Thanksgiving |
[Nov. 17th, 2005|10:47 am] |
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Well this year I will have lots to be thankful for... I just recently found out that I have been accepted to go overseas with the theatre department. This is a super awesome cool oppertunity and I'm really excited about it. Nervious, not extreamly confident about my ability to pay for it but excited. Also my classes next semester will be a lot of fun and i'm going to have theatre friends in every last one of my classes including my art class. Also i get to go home and see my darling sisters and my boyfriend... and CHICK-FIL-A is not far away in time. (granted i'm not only thankful for these things and these things come in no particular order of importance). um... yeah... see you guys soon! |
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[Nov. 16th, 2005|11:12 am] |
Mondays and Thursdays
Noon-2pm Religions of the World
2pm -4pm Scene Design
Tuesdays and Fridays
Noon-4pm Painting II
Wednesdays
1pm-4pm History and Religion of Early Christianity
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| ...... |
[Nov. 5th, 2005|11:47 pm] |
HELP! i'm lost! livejournal reformated and i don't know what to do or where to go!!!!! HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!
in other news....
Anything Goes is a GREAT SHOW everyone should see it, it makes me all warm and fuzzy
However teching Anything Goes might make me cry
Kala and John rock my world and we had so much fun tonight
i miss jacob |
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