||[Oct. 4th, 2009|05:37 pm]
So I've decided to reread all of my journal entries since the beginning. Daunting task I know. BUT I feel like I used to be rather clever (even if a terrible speller) and I'd like to recapture some of the magic (Albeit with hopefully better capitalization and grammar). It seems I used to use this journal purely to exercise my right to complain without annoying anybody except by choice. So in livejournal fashion...
TODAY WAS AWFUL. I'm sure he doesn't think he did any such thing but I firmly believe that the Children's pastor lied to me, twice! Or at the very least was not entirely honest. I realize that we can probably just caulk up both instances to him "being nice" but I'm offended.
I had an interview with him for a position which I wasn't completely qualified for (and I knew that), so I wasn't expecting wide spread acceptance. Anyway he told me he was going to check with his video editing guy and have the vidiot look at my resume and decide if I could learn how to do that part of the job satisfactorily with me experience. Then he said he'd call me back and meet with me one on one to talk about it. (Lie #1).
Frankly I wasn't surprised that this was a social pleasantry rather than a promise but after a week he did ask me to schedule a meeting with his secretary. (On a side note he might have the worst secretary every but I'm sure there's a good reason on her side) So after another 2 weeks or so we met. Not to talk about my working for him but to talk to him about my volunteering for him. (Imagine my surprise) I awkwardly asked how the hunt was going for his Production Manger (aka vidiot because that's what he really wanted) and he said there was someone that he had just talked to that he was considering. (Lie #2). He then asked me to come to Children's church and see how I could help out.
I go home and write one of my award winning emails about how and why he absolutely should hire me. I'm telling you, AWARD WINNING. Then three days later head my hopefully little butt over to Children's church where he introduces me TO THE GUY HE HIRED A WEEK AGO as someone who would be a great volunteer. Needless to say I felt...
Embarrassed, used, humiliated, used, childish, foolish, angry, upset, and several other much stronger emotions that mostly involved how I could get the Children's pastor fired. Not my most shinning moment.
Now here's the question: do I avoid the ministry or try to become so entrenched in it that they might eventually realize they should have hired me in the first place?